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- 01:28 Sunday, Sept. 11, 2005 OOF. Remember to remind people you love them :] Unless you don't then just say nice things. - 17:51 Saturday, Sept. 10, 2005 haha..lookie what I found. It's something I wrote for Engrish during my junior year. Not very well written since it is lacking some details, but there are some good points. Unfortunately, I couldn't keep from falling into the media trap myself. XD ALL WE NEED IS LOVE? Every once in a while, there’s a story about a kid planning to shoot someone who turned him down, suicide notes sent out because “life just isn’t worth living”, or one of the most bothersome ones, a young adult going as far as killing him or herself because of a broken heart. Why are we so drama-prone these days? The answer lies in the media. It is the media that makes one think that taking away another life doesn’t have its consequences or that “love” makes people do crazy things. The root of the problem may not be television, music, or magazines themselves, but our willingness to give in to them. The media people know what to put out in order to make people take interest in certain shows, ballads, and “love” columns. We hear about these “perfect” relationships blossoming and seem to make this kind of happiness our goal in life. What people don’t realize is that many times it’s not real. Though the people on television look real, they are just actors and actresses doing their job. The songs are written by greedy music producers, hoping to make a big hit and with it, big money. The magazines have to sell their material somehow. What better way than by giving so-called love advice to young girls who have already been sucked into this being-in-love-with-love craze from watching television shows? What we need to fix is our rush to grow up. Teenagers want the kind of true love that is shared by many married couples and so they rush into rubbish about who loves who more and so on. What happens when the chemistry dies off? There’s no permanent commitment; we just pick up and move on. As a married couple, it’s not as easy to just leave when one feels like it. As teenagers, we have less to worry about than adults, so in order to fill this empty space of worry, we begin to worry about how people look at us and what makes the opposite gender attracted to us. We worry about these things so much that when we finally get what we’re hoping for, which is attention from the opposite sex, we are blinded of the bad qualities that a person may have, and what starts out as flirtation turns into an intimate relationship, but soon enough hearts are broken because one did not see the other’s faults and the cycle starts over. We are used to imagining the perfection we see on TV or read about and try to find that absolute perfect someone. The truth is that no one is perfect and we have to grow up and realize that. Bwahaha, Daryl said that it made me sound bitter. :P So what? The actual piece I turned in also included a solution for myself but I took it out afterwards because it wasn't in the original anyway because I wasn't listening when the prompt was given to us. Heh heh ^_^ Anyway, my sister came home from Nippon today and she brought back a DIGICAM FOR ME :D!!!! It's a Casio EX-Z50!! WAHHH IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL! It's in RED, which I don't think anyone has over here, unless they went abroad and bought theirs too. But yeah, it's so sexy!! 5.0 megapixels. MmMMmmmhMMmm! It's a step down from my dad's camera, but I wanted a slim one and now, slim, it is! To give you an idea of how small it is, it's about the same size as my cellomaphone! I have the Siemens SL55 sliding phone that I always lose whenever I put it down somewhere.. haha. But yeah the cam is a little bigger than my cellphone when it's closed. CRAZY STYLES. I thank my wonderful sister and her boyfriend for helping me shop for it :] I feel really bad so now I have to make it up to them somehow. haha. I guess the paycheck I just got is going towards the camera. I love it so much :] - 02:03 Saturday, Sept. 10, 2005 I LOVE THIS SONG. haha. Ryan Cabrera is so cute :] I won't talk I won't breathe I won't move till you finally see that you belong with me you might think I don't look but deep inside in the corner of my mind I'm attached to you I'm weak it's true cause I'm afraid to know the answer do you want me too? cause my heart keeps falling faster I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing that's true so I will not hide it's time to try anything to be with you all my life I've waited this is true you don't know what you do every time you walk into the room I'm afraid to move I'm weak it's true I'm just scared to know the ending do you see me too? do you even know you met me? I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing that's true so I will not hide it's time to try anything to be with you all my life I've waited this is true I know when I go I'll be on my way to you the way that's true I've waited all my life to cross this line to the only thing that's true so I will not hide it's time to try anything to be with you all my life I've waited this is true.. Wooo! haha. I keep playing it over and over again. It's just one of those songs that I'm like totally in love with and can't get sick of. - 18:14 Friday, Sept. 09, 2005 HELLO! Yesterday was so much fun :] I went with Wendy, Pei Pei, Stayven, Nat, Tamara, Daryl, Ash, and Dianna Q. to the NFL kickoff at the Coliseum. A few people were EXTREMELY late to Wendy's house so we ended up going like an hour and a half later. We got a little breakfast at the BK Lounge while waiting for people to show up at Wendy's house. There was a lot of waiting involved wherever we went but we got pretty good...standing places. The first up was Rianna..or something like that. She was alright. This lady next to us was like..freaking booty dancing. It was kind of scary. I thought she was going to hurt us. Anyway, we saw Kanye West! and Maroon 5! Woo! I loved it. Pei Pei got to touch Kanye West's hand! I got close but my arms are too short. haha. Wendy got even closer but he JUST MISSED her. The lady who was booty dancing went even crazier when Kanye came out and for some reason she was trying to give him this thing wrapped in a dollar bill. haha. We were like..er wtf. Lots of random people crowded up to where we were because we were like in the front but not quite. Stupid girls and weird guy who just walked up right into the middle of our group. He even asked if we could save the spot for him. Psh no, you didn't belong there in the first place, jerk. haha. Couldn't say that though. He might beat me down. Good Charlotte played too, but I don't really like them so it was whatever. haha. I kept wondering if Hilary Duff was there too and I kept thinking about how much I don't like her. hahah. Afterwards we went to get Bao Bing and then nach Hause. I was so tired! I slept earlier than 4 for the first time in a long time. hahah. I slept around 2ish. Wee. - 03:11 Wednesday, Sept. 07, 2005 I wish I didn't have to see my friends in pain. I wish no one had to feel deep pain. I know the world wouldn't be balanced if bad things didn't happen, but do SO many bad things have to happen at once? Doesn't that like mess up the balance? Darn world. No wonder the axis isn't totally vertical. I wish I knew how to make people feel better. I really don't know how. Sometimes I crack dumb jokes in hopes of distracting them, but I want to relieve them of their pain. :[ I don't know what to do. The answer box was built to be defective. I'm kind of mad about something someone said. o_O I'll just write to myself in my journal. Bye you all. hehe - 03:58 Tuesday, Sept. 06, 2005 OOOwee. Got paid for doing very little. haha. We got time and a half for Labor Day. :D All I did was style the clothes and refold a few. It was good stuff. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to enjoy it to the fullest because I have cramps :[ After work, I got a ride home from a co-worker and it was soooo freaky because we got pulled over. This cop followed us from the parking lot and he asked if we were involved with a fight at Dave and Buster's. haha. I'm so glad it wasn't anything else. He checked Sam's license and then let us go. PhEW. I was gonna like pee in my pants or something. X_x Earlier in the day I went to visit a family friend. I didn't know she was in such bad condition :[ She's like in a wheelchair and stuff. I want her to get better. She's such a nice lady. My mom is such a sweet person sometimes. She had us come along to visit and stuff and we bought fruit for her. One thing I thought was funny was the way she treats her sister. hahaha. She's kind of mean to her. Then I thought about how my sister and I would probably be like them when we're old. I hope I get to do the yelling. haha. :D After that, my mom wanted to go to this new store that opened on Las Tunas. I got NINE BALL :D My sister really wanted to watch it because Kui is in it. haha. His name is really Joe Zheng, but we call him Kui. Anyway, I got that and a couple movies...one of them...is.....INITIAL D! haha. The real life one with Jay Chou. The other is an Ekin movie, of course. haha. :P When I got home, I just hung out with Daryl for a while and then Simrak came and we hung out for a while longer until I had to eat dinner and they went to hang out elsewhere with others. Then I ate and went to work...and you know the story. BYEE. And if you're reading this Allison...I hope I have as much luck as you do, man. haha ^_~ - 16:00 Friday, Sept. 02, 2005 HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENDY FRENDY! Today I put my feelings through a paper shredder. It was so fun! haha. Speaking of fun, yesterday I went with John Chiuuuuuuuuuuu, his friends, and Da-Real to this arcade in a faraway but not that faraway place, meaning we had to take the freeway but it wasn't super far. John Chiuuuuu drives like a crazyman! We had so much funnnnnn though. Well I did at least. haha. Daryl and I were playing all these Konami games and stuff. It was so great! We played this one game..it's either Dance Maniax or Dance Freaks. It was so hard for me because my coordination sucks. haha. We played like all the Konami simulation games besides the scratching ones. haha. Those are too hardcore. We also did not play the drumming one because the whole time we were there there was this guy there who was all crazy. Plus drumming is hard. haha. The piano one was hard too -_- There is so much more Konami has to offer other than DDR! haha. But DDR is still the awesome. Afterwards we went to a Chinese restaurant somewhere on valley and then home time. I was cured of my unhappiness. haha. Plus I had already shifted all my anger onto this guy at work who is not nice. >=|! I'm trying to clean my room. Here we go again. haha. I feel bad for my roomies.. - 14:34 Wednesday, Aug. 31, 2005 Hello. Happy birthday URSHLEY CHOY. I just had a thought and then I lost it : Dang. Well the thought that interrupted it was, YAY my sister got me a souvenir in Korea! She didn't tell me what it was but she told me what it WASN'T. It is definitely not a Korean husband :[ hahaha. Better luck next time. I think watching the sky is nice. It calms me down and stuff. I had a very sheissig day yesterday. Like it was ok and then I became disappointed and I hated it. Then I hated work until towards the end because I got to talk to people. haha. Tonight is going to suck because we're doing the girls' side :[ Sadness. OH YEAH, now I remember what my thought was. I have to get MSN Messenger for Debbie. haha. There we go. Good thing I'm writing that down because I know I'll forget again soon. Man, I always forget things I want to remember. Yesterday I had the beginnings of a song in my head as I watched the sky and then I lost it in my anger. After work I had nothing to do while waiting for my mom, so I went through old text messages. I was deleting things that didn't mean anything to me anymore and deleting ones that I sent that didn't mean much either. I realized that I am not in pain for long, which I guess is good, but it might mean something else too. I'll ponder about it later. When I'm feeling down...the music they play at work sucks times one billion. After everything I hear, I say out loud, "GOSH I HATE artist name here." Whenever they actually played something I liked, whoever was in the back would change it to something I hated. >=| Of all the days not to bring my MD player. Sigh. Hope today is better but I'm bringing the MD player for sure. I'll probably be working alone half the time. Why do people want to do things because everyone else does them? Blah. Like I know sometimes you might follow a fad because you think it's cool too but to do it because everyone else is doing it too? What happened to being yourself? Conformity sucks. Most of the people at the mall look the same. That's like a conformity magnet. Haha, you know what else is sad? Sometimes when I don't get my paycheck on time, I have to ask my little brother for money when I go out. Good thing he doesn't charge interest. I gotta remember to get my check today. <back<-->fwd> 5 most recent entries: I'm a thought criminal - Tuesday, Aug. 21, 2007 Moving away again! - Friday, Oct. 27, 2006 My reaction to Flavor of Love - Saturday, Oct. 21, 2006 Late night confusion! - Friday, Oct. 20, 2006 Bill and the couple drama across the quad - Wednesday, Oct. 18, 2006 |
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