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- 18:26 Thursday, Nov. 25, 2004 Well, so far today I've answered two of three personal statement questions for the UC applications. Oh goody gumdrops! One of them doesn't quite answer the question very well so I guess I'll have to work on that one a bit more. I really don't know what talents or experiences I have to contribute. I guess I could just use that lame essay I wrote for English but I don't really want to because it sucks. haha. I just whipped that up so I had something to turn in. Hm. Oh well. I'll think of something :] Yeah, I procrastinate. AND? mehehe. So, like, HAPPY THANKSGIVING. It's a day to be thankful and giving. I think we should give presents today instead of Christmas. It totally makes sense but not economically I guess. They need this holiday to offer sales and stuff so people can get presents for Christmas for cheaper, meaning cooler things for the people they're giving them too, ja? I guess. I don't really like shopping for other people. It's hard figuring out what to get sometimes. And like waiting in lines and stuff? Ugh. I don't like it when people are so close to me. haha. Keep your distance. I guess I have people issues. Hehe. Well, my mom went to Vegas. No one is cooking tonight so she suggested that we buy El Pollo Loco. My dad was supposed to go out to get it but he came home with pizza instead. That was more of a snack. I don't know if he's coming back later with chicken. He like..brought pizza home and then disappeared again. My sister is supposed to come back home later with Clifford, her boyfriend, but traffic is pretty bad today. I hope she makes it back in time to chicken. Plus, I want her to look at my essays and laugh at my terrible writings. :D I've been listening to Christmas music on KOST for the past few hours. I wonder why they decided to start Christmas a month ahead. That kind of sucks for Thanksgiving. Why don't people write songs about being thankful? We can call them turkey carols. I guess "Thank You" from Alanis Morisette will be the anthem of today. :P Well, I'm thankful for everything. I'm thankful for everything and everyone every day, even if I don't show it. I can't just pick things that I like, because the bad things in your life teach you stuff too. So, yeah. Be cool. Stay in school. Does anyone know anything that I can contribute to the UCs? If so, please tell me. - 23:40 Monday, Nov. 22, 2004 MAN Choreography is so hard! I can barely remember all the words to the songs and then I have to learn moves for them. I can't sing along while I move because I don't know the words! AH! And now they want us to get crazy costumes. What the erf. I want to be a rock. haha. But that's not very Christmas-y. I'll think of something. When do I not? haha jk I dunno. I kept feeling like I hate choreography but I don't and refuse to say it anymore because Mrs. Clark travels out here to teach us and it's unfair to say such things when I just get frustrated because it's hard. I just need to try harder and make copies of the music I guess. I really want to learn everything better. I think I also dread the sessions because I don't know anyone there. I don't know how to open myself to new friends and I can't figure out how to make friends with people. haha. So sad. HmM..having trouble expressing myself. There's so many things that I can write, but I don't want to because people will start rumors and crap and then the drama. So there isn't really anything to say, I guess. It does bother me when I'm not doing anything so I guess it's better if I give myself busywork. I should do some calculus. haha. I'm behind like 6 assignments. Oops. - 19:59 Sunday, Nov. 21, 2004 I forgot to mention that I found my black twin. hahaha. jk we're not twins but she was dressed just like me. haha. It was kind of awkward. I wonder if she thought the same when she saw me. Our hair was done the same way and we both wore black boatneck-ish tops and dark pants. She sat in the row in front of us at the special and I kept looking at her because it's so weird to see someone dressed like you with the same hair. I dunno, maybe it's just me. Oooh well. I've been organizing papers and throwing away stuff all day. My room is slightly cleaner and it's easier to walk through now. I think I'm going to start organizing the contents in the boxes....Eep. Bleh I don't want to do that yet. Maybe I'll just keep moving around the stuff on the floor. :P. I only have until break! AH! Okidoke. Bye. - 22:45 Friday, Nov. 19, 2004 DOOoOoooOd. HM. Yesterday I went outside to watch the meteor shower and I didn't see crap. After talking with Allison and Daryl on the phone we decided to just watch it together somewhere so we're less loserish and it's less scary. We ended up sitting on Allison's roof for like so many hours and in total we only saw like 7. haha. But that was 3 that Allison saw, 3 that I saw and one that we both saw. It was cool. We wasted our wishes and efforts on Daryl. haha. He didn't see any but might've seen the one we both saw from the corner of his eye. I kept saying astro and stuff and then we all kept saying it. We also made fun of people's laughs and stuff. I dunno we just kept cracking up about dumb things. I finally got home at like 4am and slept for two hours. Surprisingly I wasn't very tired when I woke up, but I did fall asleep during calc. After school, I went home and showered, then Tony picked me up and then Jay and Sean and we went to the American Idol Christmas Special!! hahah. It was so awesome. There was a lot of waiting in lines, but it was cool anyways. There was this one guy in a crazy shirt made entirely out of mirrors or something. It was a really weird shirt. It was like a disco ball. I didn't want to keep saying "the guy with the shiny shirt" so I named him Gerald. So like...our seats weren't too bad and it was way cooler than that stupid show Tony and I went to last time. I don't even remember what it was called...It's hard to believe that Fox put both these shows out. American Idol stuff is so much better. haha. It was in a super nice auditorium and everything. So awesome. Jay and I were trying to get Paula's attention but she didn't hear. I was kind of sad for a few seconds. hahaha. I saw John Peter Lewis though! That was so cool. He was totally like four feet away from me. I saw him pass by a few times but I didn't want to bother him. haha. He's so short! It was weird. Well, I guess I already knew that though. He looks pretty small on TV. Oh and like Allison and Daryl came super late but it was just them two so they got even BETTER seats! So unfair. haha. I ran up there for one song where everyone stood the whole time so I didn't look as out of place. It was fun but the lights were really hot. Eck. So yeah, the performances were really awesome. The three idols are really talented singers. Fantasia sounds like a duck, but she still sings really well. haha. She's a good performer. It was just scary when she would do those long...yell..thingies. haha I don't know how to describe it, but it adds dramatic effect and shows off the singer's talent. haha. But yeah, I like her anyways, because she has talent. I admire people who have real talent in singing. I love the whole concept of American Idol. I guess that's why I'm such an Idol nerd and I watch every episode. I didn't watch the first season though. I dunno what I was doing instead. Probably going online. Ugh. HmM anyway, yeah. The concept is so cool. You take regular people off the street and make their dreams come true. The talent is already there and they help show it to the nation. There are so many people who dream of being discovered, but they're never heard and this show gives them a chance. Yup. hehe. I wanna be on American Idol. haha. I put that in my goal map. Too bad I don't have super special vocals. haha. Anyways, Jay kept checking out Kelly Clarkson's butt and now he and Sean think she's super hot and they kept singing Break Away. hahaha. It was so funny. I recorded parts of some of the songs on my phone. Pretty cool. :D I'm just sort of disappointed that there weren't really any Christmas songs. Why do you call it a Christmas special when you don't even do Christmas songs?? Geez. Someone kept coming up as the topic of the guys' discussion and I think they're all secretly in love with that person. hahah. Kelly is a cover-up. Oh and Tony kept dancing all crazy in the car in the parking lot of El Pollo Loco. haha. He's good. THANK YOU TONY FOR TAKING ME. I would've cried in a corner if it weren't for you. haha. And also, thank you again and Jay and Sean for accompanying me and talking about random stuff! Weeeee - 23:35 Wednesday, Nov. 17, 2004 OH YES. I made it into the rhapsody group :D I'm so happy :]]]] hehe. Time to embarrass myself and do weird choreography. Yay. I am almost done with UC apps. WooHA. SHut up you people who already finished a long time ago. I don't care about you. haha. :D HMm...Got my dance pics. I look stupid. haha. Why am I SO SHINY? Gawsh. How un-g'd up is that? Whatever mang. hMM...Yeah...Kurtis and I are the only ones in the group pic not smiling big. haha. A few people said I ruined the picture. THANKS JERKS. It was jokingly...so they pretend. haha I almost wrote jerkingly. Maybe they're lying and are trying to cover it up by adding a laugh-ish tone to their words. You know there's some truth behind mean things you say. If you don't like it just cut me off. I'm at the end of the pic anyways. Well it's my first group pic so that was exciting :] I likes. HM..there's a lot of homework that needs to be done and I haven't been doing it. This is my new daily routine: wake up after lying in bed for perhaps an extra half hour, get ready, eat something quickly, walk to school, classes, etc., lunch in front of 311 with the same people, bum around a bit or go home, watch soaps, fall asleep until 5 or 7, never in between because nothing's on at 6, eat dinner, go online and then attempt homework but fall asleep on bed. It's pretty sad when you can say that you have a routine. I think I should change it up every day. I need some activities. Good thing bball is starting soon. More social interaction. Wee. And it'll be random people that I don't usually talk to. I feel like a sim that needs social interaction to feel content, but the difference is that sometimes I don't really want to. Oh, strange I am. Yup. MUST CLEAN ROOM. I keep thinking of cool ideas but I can't do them until my room is clean. Freaking HGTV! Always has to inspire me and crap. haha. - 23:23 Friday, Nov. 12, 2004 This season's Smallville is so good! AHH! They're like incorporating his future and making all these crazy references and then the storylines are all crazy. Goodness. I hope this doesn't mean it's the last season because then I'll have to cry. I just watched this week's episode and it was weeeird but cool. I like. Clark totally loves Lana...but I guess we know the outcome of that. :[ Watching Smallville makes me dislike Lois, because they make it seem like he's meant to be with Lana instead. And I think Lex likes her too. He's so good at hiding stuff though. Can't trust that guy...He makes flowers die. haha. I'm such a Smallville nerd. I haven't really done much this lovely, lovely 4-day weekend. Wednesday I went with Allison, Wendy and Pei Pei to the mall and we just walked around and stuff. Then we followed Pei Pei to dinner with his ROR peeps, but we sat somewhere else because we wanted him to have his alone time with them. We just talked alllll day. It was so fun. Most of it was about making fun of people, which is sad, but we were catching up and stuff. haha. :D We talked about all sorts of stuff...and TROUBLE. hahaha. We were so lame back in middle school and still are but a little less. Well, I still am, at least. Afterwards, Daryl somehow came into the picture and Allison and him came to my house and watched Castaway but I fell asleep through the whole thing. The effects of first period. Sigh. The next day I bummed around at home. Went out to dinner for my uncle's birthday. Came home and Daryl and Allison came over to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. Love that movie. It's so cool. Then we watched all the extra features, which were kind of funny sometimes. Walt Disney had a lot of special lady friends. haha. Today I bummed at home all day and organized my closet a little. I dunno how to organize. It's so hard. :[ I spent a few hours watching HGTV today. I love that channel. I like watching the interior design stuff because it's like inspiring creativity. Like today on one of the shows, they cut skateboards in half and turned them into shelves. They made it look like the skateboards were coming out of the wall and then they put little things on there like frames or candles or whatever. GOSH. I wish I were that creative. hehe. Yeah that's about all I did. I really need to work on apps. BAH. Hate college already. - 23:39 Tuesday, Nov. 09, 2004 HEck YES I did my solo! haha. It made me so happy :P I didn't do it during class though. I stayed in after class and did it during lunch so it wasn't as scary because when you do it in class everyone just looks at you and it's so AHH! But this was so cool...hahaha. I mean, I'm not really a good singer or anything, but I sang in front of people other than my family so I felt really happy. I have this glimmer of hope that I get picked to be in the rhapsody group, because you tend to get that feeling when you try out for stuff. But I dunno...a lot of the people who tried out have been doing show choir and stuff like that like all their lives and this is the first year I've actually been in a real choir. Whatever mang, the point is that I tried out and I got over my fear. Hopefully I can be brave enough during class too :D I was like smiling from the moment I walked out of class until I got home. haha. :] I finished crocheting my scarf today! WeEee...that was exciting. haha. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually get to work and do my homework instead of sit around all day. I didn't want to do anything until I finished my scarf and I had worked on that so long that I didn't really feel like doing much after it. The last time I made a scarf for myself was the one I took to Germany which, in my opinion, was very ugly, but I took it anyways because I needed a scarf. It didn't even like..match in thread size so it was all crooked and stuff. Bleh. But this one looks slightly better..hehe. Today my sister and I worked out by dancing to Korean videos. haha. Neither of us know how to dance and we're not very coordinated so it was funny. We just tried to follow along with their choreography and stuff and yeah...not very good. hehe. Oh and all the electricity around my street went out yesterday. It like..wiped out half of TC or something. So weird. Like..everything beside our street went out but for some reason we had electricity. HAH suckers. hehehe. But my cable went out a few times, which sucked but I didn't care that much. I didn't go on anyways until like late at night. But it went out after 11 something. Roar. Ok I guess that's it. Bye now. - 21:13 Thursday, Nov. 04, 2004 Some things I think are funny and enjoyable :D : -listening to the way people laugh -watching and listening to super enthusiastic people who don't seem to have much to live for but find a way to love life anyways because something out there that we can't feel keeps them going -understanding something you didn't get before -attempting to talk to a really cute guy and daydreaming about ways to do so. haha. -your nose unclogging suddenly after a very problematic stuffy/runny nose -seeing people fall in love, especially if you know them -good, soulful music -hearing someone sing very well live and the feeling you get when you sing your heart out There's so many things out there to keep me happy. I don't know why I always get all dramatic and then sad. Every two years it gets really bad around winter time. I just make myself feel worse and worse and it's so lame. What I should be sad about is how I'm wasting my life being sad. haha. I'm an emotional person, but I should just have the cool happy emotions and not the bad yucky ones :D I love how there's a word for looking at the brighter side of things. Yup. Optimism. Go for the O. haha. I just made that up. <back<-->fwd> 5 most recent entries: I'm a thought criminal - Tuesday, Aug. 21, 2007 Moving away again! - Friday, Oct. 27, 2006 My reaction to Flavor of Love - Saturday, Oct. 21, 2006 Late night confusion! - Friday, Oct. 20, 2006 Bill and the couple drama across the quad - Wednesday, Oct. 18, 2006 |
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