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- 21:24 Saturday, Jul. 10, 2004 Dood..Neglected to say...HARRY OSBORN IS A FREAKIN' HOTTIE HOT HOT. hahaha. From Spiderman, the movie, not the cartoon. In the cartoon he looks gay. haha. :] And..two days ago when I went to SG Superstore, I saw this on someone's license plate: 5EXY555. hahaha I thought it was freakin' awesome. Today wasn't that exciting. Drew was supposed to come home THIS MORNING, but freakin....ARGH. I mean, I understand the sleepy part, but at least do what you're gonna say. I was anticipating it all day, but NO ONE called me AFTER HIS NAP, nor did anyone RETURN MY CALL, even after I left a stupid message. Piss me off dood. I haven't seen Drew for like two or three weeks already. It better be effing awesome. I woke up all early to put on a t-shirt too so I wouldn't be entirely in my PJs. Sigh. It's not the fact that I don't have my computer, it's the fact that I was lied to several times. I hate how no one sticks to their word. I mean, I know I do it sometimes, but eventually I make up for it. If you're not going to do it today, then don't say "today". Say "later" or SOMETHING, then I won't sit around all day, wondering where the hell Drew could be and worrying that something bad might have happened to the person working on it. I called like four times. -_- MEHHHH. :[ Makes me sad. I'll try not to be upset and stuff. It just sucks getting lied to. I was all excited too. On a lighter note, I'm really excited about going to China. haha. I'm going freakin' shop dood. It'll be so great. The only problem I have is that I'm not that close to anyone at all in my family except for my sister. And I mean like the entire family, both sides. I just DON'T KNOW how to communicate. That really sucks. I don't know what to do about that, because I'm probably going to be hanging out with my twin cousins a lot and if I don't talk then it's just lame. I need to work on my Chinese anyways. I bet all their friends are going to make fun of me about being American. Biotches. hahaha jk. Oh well, I'm still excited to go. I need someone to watch my fishies though. I don't know what to do. I know I can't depend on my dad to do it. haha. I don't know what to do : Yeah...I spent most of my day waiting for my mom and aunt. I went with my twin cousins and them to Chinatown, where we didn't do much. The cousins and I just got some boba, which wasn't excitedly terrific, and we walked around but not very much, while our moms were shopping for herbal stuffers. Then it was off to SG Superstore for ginseng. We spent a very long time there and it was pretty boring. The three of us had headaches. haha. PS People are so freakin' fake dood. Sometimes, you know people from school and then you happen to stumble upon their xangas and they act all hardcore and crap or ricey. WTF man. That's so freakin' lamesauce. But I guess the internet is like a place to create your alter ego. You can be whatever you want online. It's hilarious sometimes though. For all you guys know, I could be a freakin' molester man or something. hahahaha. Oh and when I, if I ever do, get Drew back, I can work on the new layout again, which I had to put on hold since Drew needed some help. Reminder, Drew's a comp. PPS I like the Circle of Life video that they do on the Disney Channel with all the stars. haha. It shows that some of them have other talents. The only thing I don't like is how they always focus on Hilary Duff. She's NOT that good at singing dood. Her voice is so high. It kind of hurts sometimes. I don't mind the focus on Raven, because she's actually good at singing. haha. I think Orlando Brown and Tahj Mowry have really good voices and so do..shoot I forgot her real name..I dunno..Ren from Even Stevens. hahah. Annaliese van something doesn't sound that good [I think the lyrics were too overemphasized] in that video and she has on too much make-up, but she's a lot prettier now and the song she did for the next movie is alright. - 18:39 Friday, Jul. 09, 2004 The Nerd-O-Meter says 56% :] I was gonna go out but I wasn't sure but Linda went out with someone else so oh well. haha. We were arguing about who was disliked more by someone. :P After she left [the internet, that is], Tony and I were planning out his movie. hahahah. It's awesome. At the same time, Daryl was making plans to become a porn star. hahaha..kidding. He wants to be famous and tell everyone about Nudelauflauf. :] That was fricken awesome. I had another exam today..dood..I suck. haha. I got another B. I answered one of the questions wrong :[ And it was one of the ones he read out loud. Punk. hehe. We have another field trip on Monday. WeE. I'm gonna try to get into a different car though, because that one girl is scary. hMm..I got bored so I put my hair in curlers since I got more. haha. :D I'm gonna take them out soon to see how it looks. haha. Wee. I curled some of my brother's hair but it's too short and just made a few half circles on the top of his head. haha. That was good stuff. Looks like I could be staying home tonight so. And my sister's in Irvine until Sunday because of her loverr - 15:20 Thursday, Jul. 08, 2004 HAH..my mom is really pissed at my cousin because he broke the couch. My mom bought those couches to match the ceiling and yes, perhaps to hang out and watch tv and just talk, but is it really necessary to PLOP down on them every time you sit down? They're pretty nice couches and I don't blame her for being mad, especially since I witnessed him like plop down on the couch so harshly without regard to the fact that those couches are held up by metal legs on the corners and it's not like they're super cushy so there's really no reason for plopping. Sigh. I don't wanna get mad at him. He's a cool guy..just sometimes he can get on people's nerves, I guess. hehe. Oh well. My mom's fixing the couch right now. I hope it functions right. Maybe I should put signs on the couches to tell him not to sit down so hard. If another leg breaks my mom's going to be even more pissed. : He's a really smart guy. I just wish he would do something with it, because right now it seems like he's not really going anywhere. -_- Hm. This sucks. I have to give back the model jewelry today. haha. My sister has a pair of the earrings. Ack. I hope the lady doesn't get pissed or else I'm going to have to get ANGRY. hahaa jk..She talks too much for me to have a chance to get angry. hahaha. :D Oo..she just called. haha. Shoot, I should've told her about the earrings. Oh well. - 18:53 Wednesday, Jul. 07, 2004 Beach on Monday was fun. A little scary, but fun. We dug the most awesomest pit and it had like four barriers and three trenches to protect it from the water. WAHAHA. Oh and the night before was so fun too. We had bbq and shizzle at Susan's house and then fireworks at Nataly's where we kept leeching off the neighborinos because they had illegals. Then we played Clue in teams and it was so fun. haha. Nataly and I won. Woot. Yeah, the bbq was fattening, especially the scallops wrapped in bacon. WAH. I felt like I was gonna die when I got home. haha. Then the next day I had MORE bbq. I feel like my arteries are going to burst. : Oh well. Good food. :] hMm...not much going on now. haha. Just reading through the journal again. Here's a quote [with spelling and grammar corrections, of course. hahah]: "Our liking for each other is [composed of] hormones and chemistry..." Sigh. I guess that's pretty much what a lot of relationships are based on. I hope things change, but I have to speak up about the main issue. Bleh. People can be so lamesauce. I should just forget about all of it and work on getting me a date to homecoming. hahaha. RIGHT. hMm..I think..everyone is meant to find love, but some people are too shallow and others too ignorant. In my case, I hope I completed my own soul. haha. I don't think I'd do the other person any good if I found him anyways. But it doesn't matter. I don't have to think much about this right now, since all I ever seem to feel are hormones and chemistry and I know life is not a chickflick. haha. Anyway, went and bought coasters and more hair curlers today. haha. The foamy ones. :] Now my hair won't get stuck as much. haha. It'll be fun. Oh and..yesterday was really fun too. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROHAM JACK. :D I went with him to watch Spiderman 2, which was really good, especially compared to the first one. ECK. hehe. But yeah, I liked it bunches. haha..they kept speaking in metaphors. Then we came home and I fell asleep on my sister's bed as usual. My sister played Chinese Checkers with Jack and then we played Big 2 and stuff. We played like one round of 21 with my cousin and then it was back to Big 2. After our big yummy dinner, we played with morning glories in the driveway. Then we had ice cream cake. haha. I hope he had a good day :] Bye bye. - 01:24 Tuesday, Jul. 06, 2004 It's unbelievable what kind of person I am. I think deep down inside there isn't really much that is good about me. The journal makes me laugh now, but I have to remember that that's what made me cry for two days straight, which one of those days I was forced to go out to temporarily ease the pain because I couldn't cry so much in front of other people and my friends were kind enough to pretend it was my birthday so I could get a pretty cake thing at Crocodile Cafe. hah. I still have the candle by the way :] And why did I cry? Because I pretty much ruined a life. And I never fell through in stopping it. And what am I doing now? The same thing. As I've said before, the situation repeated itself, but the common factor is that I'm always hurting someone. I don't know what to do anymore. I know I keep telling myself that it's useless to keep doing this, but when other people are affected, I don't know how to fix it. I'm sorry to anyone who ever comes in my path. : - 22:16 Saturday, Jul. 03, 2004 Man, Amy is so good with words and she's so smart. I wish I could be all philosophical like that, but no. I am probably a self-centered lameface who can't figure out how to feel. haha. But yeah, I can relate to what she's talking about, though I haven't found anyone that I can totally act myself around besides my sister..but you know that feeling where you wanna hang out with your "friends" more than family. Then you realize how bad people tend to treat you and how blood IS thicker than water after all..I've been spending every night in my sister's room since she moved back home. I love cheelin' with her. haha. She laughs with me at all the dumb stuff and everything. And maybe this is my expectation of a true friend, but I haven't been able to find anyone like that because it's a choice to hang out with someone you just know, but family is forever. haha..when she cried, I cried with her. When I cried, she made fun of MB. hahaha. Sorry, short sidenote. :] Moving on, real friends are hard to find and when you find one, don't screw yourself over. haha. If I thought really hard about it and everything that a friend is based on in my eyes, I'd say that I really have only like three, usually four, friends, one of which is my sister. Everyone else, yeah..I wish to be friends with them, but something keeps me back or something isn't real about the relationship. Do you people ever notice how I draw back pretty quickly? haha. But I love the relationship I have with my best friend. Even though we rarely talk, she still puts me over the other people in her life, besides family of course, and Ping is a given. haha. But yeah, it's time I do the same for her. HAH friends, what a great subject. But I'll end this how it started. AMY IS SO COOL. Keep it reah guhfriend. hahaha. Hope you always get what you're searching for :D Bye. - 12:24 Saturday, Jul. 03, 2004 Do you know what I do before I go to PCC? Watch POWER RANGERS. hahaha. Tommy's on it! But now he's a professor. OOO. Yeah he looks so much better with short hair. I never really thought he was that good looking because of his nasty hair but now he's alright. haha. Yup, Power Rangers Dino Thunder. hahaha. Anyway, no beach today after all :[ BUT we're gonna go watch movies soon. It'll be funsor. I think we're watching The Notebook. I'm gonna like..bring a box of tissues, because I know I'll cry a lot. hahaha. I cry about everything dood. But yeah, I'm watching it like two weeks earlier than I'm supposed to but he probably won't remember anyways. Gayface. haha. :] Oh well. Wait for DVD I guess. :P I had a good day yesterday because I made a new buddy and it's really hard for me to do that so it was sooo great :D I can't understand what he's saying sometimes, but that's what makes him even funnier. hahaha. I used to think he was creepy but he's really not. Woot. After I ate lunch, I went to my grandma's house and cheelaxed there for like 5 or 6 hours. I read through more stuff in the Dalai Lama's book, wrote some of it down, watched a bunch Chinese soaps with my grandma and some other Chinese tv as well as Everybody Loves Raymond and Friends. My grandmama slept most of the time but I liked hanging out with her anyways. haha. It was funny when she took the walker out to walk around. It looks so cute. hehehe. She's getting better every day. Woohoo! Today I realized some stuff, but I don't think it'll bother me that much because no matter what I do I'll be in the same position as when I started, just more heartwrenched. haha. I'm kind of sad about beachlessness because I was so ready and I had all my gear. haha. Sigh. It's ok, next time. We're supposed to go Monday or something. If Jennifer is planning something, maybe I'll go with her oder etwas. Ja. Oh yeah..hahaha. I went with Ashley to McDonalds for my breakfast and there was this scary old man who kept turning around to look at us when we walked back. I hope we weren't scaring him or anything. Maybe that's what that look on his face was. : Sorry Mister man. After that we just sat around and watched Power Rangers while I ate. haha. That was great. :D bye bye now. - 14:45 Thursday, Jul. 01, 2004 Haha..it's funny when people don't understand how they act towards others. But oh well. I'm not here to judge people. Only to laugh at them ^_~ Or get angry. My specialty. hMm..so I haven't really said much in the past few days. Things are alright now. Yay. I was stupid for creating all this drama for myself, but it's ok, because it really only affected me since the other party didn't know. haha. I was getting to be sad on Tuesday night, because I felt like I wasn't doing anything right anymore and I screwed people over [mostly PERSON] and I felt all lame and wondered what I did to put myself into this position. I feel like I haven't done as much wrong as other people, but it's not right to compare my deeds to someone else's, I guess. We don't have the same standards or anything. Also, it's because thinking of something is the same thing as doing it..something Joe said to me. haha. So just because I seem nice doesn't mean I am. And you guys probably think I'm nice, because I don't talk much. :P But the power of regret and a conscience helps to put you back on track so it's cool, I guess. But anywho, I was sad and then Daryl sang the Noodle Dance song. hahaha. That was so funnyy. I wish I knew the dance so I could be crazy cool. I went to the mall Tuesday to buy something at Silhouette. I got this awesome shirt..mehehehe. Then yesterday I went to West Co and bought another shirt. MeHEHE. I spent forever there because I couldn't decide between the skirt or the shirt..sigh. At night, Pat showed up and we went to deliver Everlyn's birthday present. We tried to go to Starbucks for free drinks but no. It was over at 7. Then we went to Sav-On for ice cream but NO, that was CLOSED. WHY?? haha. So we went home discouraged. Today I went on a field trip with my PCC class to the Cabrillo Aquarium in San Pedro. We did some beach cleaning, which was pretty funny. The people in my group kept calling this piece of a spork a heroine spork. haha. We went to the aquarium and had to look for plants and animals to write down. The moon jellyfish is really prettyy. Oh and this one girl I carpooled with was kind of freaky. I mean, I like..said something nice and she was like *roar* *chomp*. It was freaky. Maybe she was just intimidating and I couldn't handle. haha. Or maybe no one else really noticed because I'm a people observer..not a talker. haha. I didn't really want to talk so I had nothing to say to them and sat in silence most of the way to and from. They're pretty nice people though. I think that's all that happened. Bye bye friends. And yeah, Drew's not home yet :[ <back<-->fwd> 5 most recent entries: I'm a thought criminal - Tuesday, Aug. 21, 2007 Moving away again! - Friday, Oct. 27, 2006 My reaction to Flavor of Love - Saturday, Oct. 21, 2006 Late night confusion! - Friday, Oct. 20, 2006 Bill and the couple drama across the quad - Wednesday, Oct. 18, 2006 |
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